i'm upset? i guess?


fuck man. i miss you and i cared but it was bound to happen. i feel like we broke up ahhahaaa.


life is goooood

i think its sooo funny you are pissed i deleted you off myspace.


...and how old are we again?

I have learned a lot through this whole process.


I'm indecisive. I don't know what I want... not exactly what I want but how to say what i want. Expressing my thoughts have never been easy for me.

I'm not over... whatever I've gone through. I have no clue what exactly what I'm not over. I believe its a combination of absolutely everything in the past 7 years. I haven't let myself get over one thing at a time. Its all built up and I have no clue how to tear it all down.

I'm not upset about losing you. I'm more upset about the fact that you were right about me and that fact that I have issues that have not found a solution.

I need to stop and think. I have to start to be able to explain this... and I have no clue where to start. I though I had it all figured out, then you showed up and threw me off course. I needed this.


If I could put everything I feel, think, breathe into words maybe.. just maybe I could get over this huge wall.

the only reason i'm not going to gainsville tonight is because things weren't the way i want to leave them.




but you went to orlando.

i lose my faith, trust and hope in you, i'm done for.



i will never ever ever ever ever ever trust a person again. you would have confirmed my suspicion of me being alone forever and there are no good people on this earth.



all ive ever wanted from anyone is to prove me wrong. but all anyone does is prove me right.

i am certainly at a point in my life where i have no clue what to do next. i no longer have a job or my own house. the debate between working or going back to school is never ending. or i could move.. but where to? california? gainsville? tallahassee? who knows? its a very liberating but confusing feeling.

even though i lost all faith in humanity, my job, thousands of dollars, and real shitty friends through moving out, i am ready for anything. it has opened my eyes in ways i desperately needed.

on a positive note, i am away from idiots(for the most part), i have plenty of alone time and enough faith in myself to keep going.

TO YOU: I love that you don't hide the fact you are an asshole. When it comes down to it I can't remember the last time I have called you that in anger. Our relationship is amazing. I know you agree. You have told me so several times. I am sorry for the other night. I just didn't know how to react. I pay attention to you as well. You are def teaching me the lessons I need to learn. ily2<3


TO YOU: STDs aren't attractive.


TO YOU: So... we are friends.... right? I have no clue how to read you. I thought I knew you but apparently I was sooo wrong.


TO YOU: Hey, asshole! Getting fucked up all the time isn't going to help anything. You are just fucking up your life even more. I guess its just not enough to fuck up my life.


Living at home again! It's not as bad as it was before. My parents seems to not be up my ass anymore. Overall, things are amazing!

there are holes in all the doors in my house, i dropped my BRAND NEW ipod in the toilet, my phone keeps dying, the stupidest people decided that they can randomly come to my house without asking and i don't have a towel rack.


but no matter how bad things get, i still refuse to be upset. life is too short.

life is amazing. i live with the craziest people.



and for the first time in forever, im extreamly happy. :)

i finally moved out of my parents house.


and i think someone stole my ipod.




I'M SICK OF BEING TREATED LIKE I AM DIRT.